Heart songs Day 21

My heart is sad today. It longs for something that isn't there. I think Vanessa Carlton is totally appropriate today. She created an anthem that I have spent the past few years trying to make a reality. I lay here drunk with sadness. I miss him today more than I have in months and I don't know if I truely miss him or if the martini's are giving me the allusion that I do. But I vowed to be honest and I hate that he moved away.